Paul A. Toth

So, I really want to help Paul A. Toth – which yes, happens to be my boyfriend – with getting his new novel published. (He is not holding a gun to my head to make me do this either.) Anyway, please visit his site, http://www.netpt.tv to see his work. Not only does he write novels, but poems and short stories too. He also has a podcast http://tothnews.libsyn.com/, where he does his own musics. He is very talented and not afraid to write new and interesting material. And don't forget to visit http://hitandrunmagazine.blogspot.com/ - Paul is the editor.



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Strings flying around wildly

That’s all it is really

Just flying around getting tangled

Like the jingle I heard the other day

Not sure what the words are

So I hum a hum hum

It meshes with the wind

Floats around too for some reason

Invisible and kind of chunky

You know the soup

They say it’s for the soul

Only I don’t know anyone

Who has one of those things

So I pray a prayer pray

It drowns in the light way up there

Twirling up and then down

Headed for the ground

Then I stomp a stomp stomp

Need to put it out like a cigarette

Smokes a little then its out

So I smile and walk away

Chuckling at silly strings

Once

I was married once
Felt like slashing my wrist
Moved to Florida instead
Sweet sweat swimming

I was divorced once
Wanted to bash his head
Ended up on the short end
Kick "k"ock knocking

I was treated like shit once
That’s what the license did
Tore it up to shreds
Law licking loser

I was a dope one time around
Now I’m on a new ride
Things are different now
Love Lover Loving Friend

5

Things taken and torn
Once mine then no more
I weep my sadness sudden
Spinning out of control

Need something hold tight
Afraid of the nothing
Feeling less than the lowest
Residue of suffering

What have I to give?
Your eyes no longer see
Only others are seen
I saw them asking

Crazy they tell me
Not usual as usual
Always telling stories
Making words appear

A little slow in body and mind
Others too fast for me
I bend my head low
Listening to the ground not others

D's for Today

Disconnects and fragments
Displacing time and emptiness
Dispelling sentiment and old men
Displeasing to the sound

Deserted and abound
Desperate under skin
Despair at will whenever
Despise your tentacles

Dominant feelings
Dominatrix falling happily
Domain yet undetermined
Dominion over nothing

Oh cheer up!

Story of Logan: 1

Oh the feel of thee moving
Hands and feet protruding
Warm heart beating
As I lie on my bed I feel you

My hand splays across
Thump thump movements
I giggle at your hiccups
Not yet birthed you make me smile

You feel heavy and in control
I have to run quick to pee
Sometimes I am in pain
But you, you’re safe and happy

I close my eyes and speak to you
Soon you will know my voice
We will be together still
Laughing and sharing in love

Oh....so sweet.....

Silly

Silly strings of chatter sing song
Word and thought strung together
Ebb and flow of crazy productions
Blur beneath my eyelids

My lips upturned red
Hands floating feeling the air
Music of joy dispatched
Humming a tune

Kiss me kiss me
Arms embracing and entangled
Tip toes dancing circles
Heart racing like drum drum drum

Fight back and don't give in
Broken things creep towards
Disjointing the sounds terrifying
A sad tune threatens

Hands in front of my imaginings
Straighten it out love
Talk talk talk doctor
Fix myself like strum strum strum

Funny little feelings
Sounds like no more crying
Return to the dispatched
Silly strings of chatter sing song

?

What do you have that I don't?

I cry and I laugh
My eyes are of colors in light
My skin thin with hardship
And don't forget wit
Pale and dark I come to thee
Love in and out and throughout within

What do you have that I don't?

My lips full with words
I think and feel the universe
I hold you to my self
My heart beating thick with blood
Moving to my own music
Sometimes still

What do you have that I don't?

I get lonely once in a while
Sometimes bleaker than bleak
Raining sadness and distrust
Your eyes say otherwise
Like I am made of stone
Hold my heart carefully

What do you have that I don't?

Sometimes light and forgiving
My smile a thousand times bright
Every thing that is me permeates life around
More beautiful than ever
Always trying to please
And often times I do

What do you have that I don't?

Nothing......

Playground

Bouncing red to the wall
Down an alley to the street
Swinging to touch the sky
Spinning circles, hang on tight

Landing on your bottom
At the bottom
Jumping over a rope
Springing to and fro on a duck

Throw a rock, jump right over
Chalk boxes on the sidewalk
Laughter from the monkeys
Hanging on the bars

Circle in the sand
Plunking a lucky taw
Hit a home run
Don't forget dinner

Smiles and Kisses

Smiles and kisses
Rainbows and balloons
No clowns, they scare me
Just like spiders do

Sunshine and blue skies
Ice cream and bicycles
Happiness like a cyclone
Whizzing around us

Laughter and skipping
Peanut butter and bananas
Spinach in a can, disgusting
Pink cotton candy, sticky good

Love notes and check boxes
Poetry and romantic ballads
Birds singing tunes
Whizzing around us

Spikes

The age of repressing over
No more depressing happiness
Time to slide over-the-hill
Landing on my feet on the other side

My youthful look still with me
To indicate my attitude of being beautiful yet
There's a lot of life left in me
A knowing grin on my face

The sun is my friend along with blue skies
Soaking into my disposition
Giving it life and breathing love
I see hope and transformation in my hands

The hill slopes steeply downward
But I have spikes on my shoes
Laughing all the way slowly down
PT taking my hand - we smile in the sun

Anxiety
Thoughts like nightmares
Never ceasing
Plagues
Rips and swells
Shaking you to your core
You
Not knowing who
Not understanding why
Take
Each day no better
Just a struggle to wake
Heart
Feels black and empty
A pit with no end
My love
Cannot fix you
You feel lost
Hope
Eludes you endlessly
Leaving you desolate
Will

Unusually Positive - I Like Me, I'm OK

I am beautiful

When I speak my voice is silk
When I walk I glide
When I am unclothed I radiate
I am

I am intelligent
When I speak worlds are formed
When I walk I create peace
When I am unclothed I strike you dumb
I am

I am confident
When I speak I know the truth
When I walk I do it with my head up
When I am unclothed I bare all
I am

I am interesting
When I speak I have a story
When I walk I’ll make you wonder
When I am unclothed I am not ordinary
I am

I am Christina Renee Polzin
When I speak you will know me
When I walk you will understand me
When I am unclothed I am naked
I am Christina